I often feel like I am living within a videogame. It is like most people around me are hardwired to follow specific patterns set out by society, while I never stay within the confines of this mental “box.”
I often think about many of the great minds that ever lived – Their genius and unique perception were often misunderstood, resulting in a life of self-doubt and social isolation.
It is impressive to see many new innovations made possible by bright designers, coders, and engineers. But what if your dream, talent or gift is so abstract and hard, if not, impossible to describe in a “logical” or “scientific” way, simply because your idea reaches further and cannot be explained by those concepts.
What if math and science feel like restrictions, rather than a useful tool to tell your grand ideas?
I am not saying that most ideas cannot be explained with science and mathematics, but what if your brain is not wired like that? How can you find the right way to transfer your piece of art inside your mind to something that you can grasp and deem “real.”
In my observations, the difference between an idea and reality is just a step of action or multiple actions. But what if you feel and see an endless stream of possibilities? What if every time you write down the structure inside your mind, the structure expands.What to do when your mind is not interested in keeping it “boxed” and understandable.
The satisfying feeling of creating something that just is – like a product that is ready for launch, but not yet perfect- seems excellent. I often yearn for a more uncomplicated mind. Too truly enjoy creations, loving them with all its imperfections. Wouldn’t that be great?
In my life, I’ve been struggling with these concepts. When is something really done and finished? Some of my mentors and friends call it my strive for perfection. But I think it’s something more significant.
My inner thoughts and ideas don’t seem to ever stop. I feel like I’ve written down an outdated concept whenever my ideas are translated from my inner world to something on paper. In this small time-span of bringing from mind to reality, I’ve come up with so many new connections, better ways, and vague patterns that make me struggle to keep it coherent to others and ultimately myself.
I nowadays find comfort and a feeling of deep connection through concepts like art, design, philosophy, engineering, science, books, and music. They make me feel connected to the creator, and on the same level of understanding, which can only be explained by frequencies and vibrations aligned on a higher level, beyond our own awareness.
I might be destined to live my life like an artist. Born to create, although not sure what direction he is going, not sure when and where inspiration strikes, but knowing that what’s inside needs to get out. It must flow.